Boy if you fuck up in your relationship don’t come running to me to fix it. I’m not your emergency kit for fixing relationships. You fuck up. You fix it. End of story.
I thought that you’d be different and stay unlike the others but, i guess i was wrong to think that things wouldn’t be the same anymore. I’ve been caught up in this whole big cycle of pain and i still have yet to find a way out of it. I’d ask for your help but, you’re probably too busy to even notice me anymore.
and here we go again
smoking every last cigarette
hoping my lungs give out
We both promised each other that things wouldn’t change after high school ended but, i can see clearly your words were lies because you were the one who changed and let go of everything we had even our friendship just to gain what you wanted. I’m done with everything that has to do with you. I’ve changed everything in my phone, my social media, my life even about you. You’ve changed so much that you can’t even see the real me anymore like you used to be able to. Now i’m just hiding in this empty shell of a body waiting for a sign that you’ll come back to your senses and we can be friends again. Waiting for that day where we can talk to each other and share our days adventures or dramas with each other like we used to. I just hope that day comes soon because i’m slowly losing my sanity while you slowly drift off into your world of temporary happiness. I hope someday you’ll see how much you’ve changed and how much it’s affected me because others are starting to notice but, you’re the only one who still has yet to notice how i’m feeling.
There’s no one left in this world for me. I’ve lost too many people who i thought cared about me but, i guess in the end no one ever really did because they all walked out of my life as if it was nothing in the first place. Friends, family, and even my closest friend walked out of my life. I just dont know what’ll happen next anymore. Maybe this will be the end of my hell hole of a life.